A New Years Message: Why Join Me?

Know Thyself

Labels are necessary. Hear me out. You need them to know yourself. And when you know yourself, you know the other. Too well. You see right through the masks. The gift of discernment awaits. Loving yourself, shadows and all, catapults you into your purpose, because you came here with a unique mission, hidden within you and waiting to be discovered.

Acceptance of these truths enables you to love yourself. And when you truly love yourself, you are able to love others despite the shadows they present to you. You can afford forgiveness for yourself and others for the shadows and projections you now see.

Krishnamurthy said, if you are a liar, be a liar. That acceptance of your shadow frees you to choose something different. You don’t even have to try. Just be aware.

“If I admit I’m a liar, I can deal with it, but if I say, ‘I told a lie because of this, this and this,’ then I am running away from it. If I don’t run away, I can deal with it.”

J. Krishnamurthy: From Small Group Discussion 1, Bombay (Mumbai), 7 January 1977

Know thyself

So simple and powerful! Join me on a personal journey with this difficult yet illuminating story. The hardships endured were just stepping stones in learning who I really am. The labels that you have assigned yourself may be masks. But the labels you came in here with, need to be uncovered. Because that’s where your lessons lie.

It helped me immensely to identify that I was acting out coping mechanisms from childhood trauma. That I was a wounded empath. It explained why I made poor choices in relationships, why I chose a role that drained me every time. I couldn’t get out of the pattern until I recognized it for what it really was.

Childhood trauma with themes of abandonment, rejection and conditional love are almost ubiquitous in the world today. So why do some become empaths and some narcissists? There is something in you that you were born with, that you came here with that takes you either way. Service to self vs Service to other. The decision point in the Law of One, a set of books I highly recommended for a thorough examination of our reality.

You can stay neutral, but you won’t be accepting the opportunity to evolve. Just play the game and come back again for more. It is your soul’s choice.

If you identify as either empath or narc, it’s a launchpad for evolution. This is what I learned. I needed to see and experience both sides of that coin. So that I could share this truth with you.

To the narcs: Let me just say now, that incarnating with the tendency for narcissism from trauma wounds was a brave choice by your soul. For whatever reason, you came here for a very intense journey deep in the shadows of ego. For most of us, selfishness is a weak trait, that is recognized and repented for. Empathy is too strong to allow it to take hold for too long. For those who chose Service to self (as elucidated by the Law of One), the lack of empathy and remorse are key aspects and narcissism is their default mode. You can find yourself anywhere on this spectrum. Recognition is key to using this for evolution.

The empath’s journey is also fraught with illusion. And sometimes it may be more difficult to exit the loop of self sacrifice, rescuer roles and judgement of wayward souls. Society praises selflessness and unchecked empathy, unconditional forgiveness. You may become lost in these ideals and feed a shadow of the ego. There will be a haughtiness and spiritual vanity that needs to be humbled even when an empath becomes sovereign.

Love Thyself

Where I landed after facing these shadows, was realising that the label I have been denying my whole life is a Heyoka Empath. Healing this part of me enables me to use the gift of this label as a superpower.

What is it and why does it mean I can help you?

I am not just a rebel, a fringe player, a system challenger. All my life I thought I was these things, while trying to fit in boxes to please and appease everyone. But I’m out the box now, and embracing my role as Heyoka.

There are some aspects of me that don’t fit into the usual empath role. I have always had an unpredictable and biting streak, and can sometimes be brutally honest with a genuine smile. My confidence sometimes unnerves people who mistake me for a vulnerable empath. My ability to mirror people and their shadow has gotten me accused of being the narc. And I entertained this accusation because I, unlike narcissists, yearn to grow and evolve. Now, after delving into my own depths, I understand what they saw, but I see that the challenge I bring to people has always been from a space of kindness, not control.

Challenging societal norms has always been my norm. My life story speaks for itself. Yet every crazy idea I have had, has always come with intentions for good of the collective, not for myself. Whether it has been questioning prevalent beliefs and uncovering deception in accepted systems and institutions, travelling with MSF to hostile environments despite the security risk, wanting to build a new kind of children’s hospital here in the Eastern Cape, delving into energy medicine as a basis for health against the current medical establishment’s ignorant denial. I was following my guidance as a Heyoka.

Become the Creator

I can see you clearly, because I see myself clearly. I am not just an empath. I’m a shadow revealer and I can awaken you to your own power, not rescue you. You may be triggered by my honesty and mirror effect and choose to run away. But if you are ready, the truth I offer can help you to set yourself free.

Let my stories heal parts of you that you have denied. And connect with me if you feel called. I will share either way.

I will be sharing personal stories and experiences that will show you that I am far from perfect. How my mistakes and shadows played out in my life uncovering gems of wisdom. These truths may be triggering and uncomfortable especially when sharing about the people in my life that came as teachers. This is a trigger warning. My intention is not to judge or blame, but to grow in truth. This is why I am creating a safe space, a community that if you are guided, you will resonate with these lessons that not everyone is ready to hear.

I will share stories and lessons from my time with Doctors Without Borders, my childhood trauma and healing as an adult, coming of age in world that suppresses the divine feminine, my challenges as a paediatric surgeon, my honest opinion on the current medical system, my journey through dark nights of the soul, my learning through toxic relationships, all of them tempered with the spiritual insight I have gained from burning in these fires and finding divine guidance and grace.

I am loving myself, all parts, all labels. This has launched me into creator mode. I am creating with the intention of service to others. Humbled by spirit through healing because I know what drives my passions with heightened intuition now.

My healing brought about a change in me that uncovered a power that I am guided to share. The power of truth, the power of connection with God, the power of unconditional love. I am not doing this for your approval or praise. God gives me that 🙏🏽 I am doing it to show you how you can do it too.

Love Yashoda

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